Post #23 - Denying Myself

I wish things weren't going the way they are. 

I am completely unhappy with my situation. 

I'm worn out and tired. I don't understand why some things are happening... and why some things are not. And NOTHING is going the way I want it to. 

I'm having trouble finding a good job. My relationship has fallen apart. I'm in an uncomfortable living situation. And I'm struggling to pay my bills.

But I know that it's all working out for my good.

I know that God has something and someone especially chosen for me. And I know that at just the right time, God will present them to me. 

It may not be what I want it to be or come the way I want it to, but it will be perfect for me and will come at the perfect time. 

So for now, I will wait on God. 

I will deny myself of what I really want and I will wait for God to give me what He has for me... what I need.

I want to settle for something easy and convenient. I want to do what I need to do to ease the pain and discomfort. I want to force things to happen and manipulate them to go my way. 

But I know that my way isn't always the right way. I know that I can't rush God's blessings. I know that the race is not given to the swift or the strong, but to the one who endures until the end.

I know that if I wait on the Lord, I will be renewed and strengthened.

I know that if I give my cares to Him, He will give me everything I need, and I will be lacking nothing.

So, I'm going to do without what I don't have because I know that what God chooses for me is so much better than anything I can choose for myself. 

I will deny myself. I will pick up my cross. And follow the Lord (Matthew 16:24).