Post #24 - A Year Later | My Back Story - Now

A year later and I'm still at my aunt's house. I honestly didn't think I would be here this long. My plan was to finish school and QUICKLY find a job and venture out on my own. 

NO. SUCH. LUCK.

I have submitted hundreds and more hundreds of resumes and filled out too many applications to count... and nobody has hired me.

In fact, out of the hundreds of jobs that I have applied for, only TWO have showed any real interest. And those did not pan out.

I have heard multiple times how great my resume is and how qualified I am, but that's as far as it has gone. I've been having no luck on the job front. 

I was so stressed about not finding a job that I ended up in the hospital for a few days a few months ago. I thought I was having a heart attack and had my aunt take me to the ER. 

Thankfully it was not a heart attack! The doctor said that my heart is strong. The symptoms that I experienced - chest tightness, back pain, pain in both of my arms, lightheadedness, and nausea - mimicked a heart attack, but were from cervical muscle spasms. 

All side effects of stress. 

I had to take stock of my situation and remind myself that everything I was trying to do was out of my control. For my part, I can apply for the jobs and follow up. I cannot MAKE anyone hire me. 

It's funny because before my MBA, I had no problem finding work. Now, hiring managers are telling me that I am overqualified and companies are afraid that they will have to pay me a salary worthy of an MBA. 

They are right.

That's why I am now applying for the positions ABOVE the ones I usually apply for - the ones I USED to apply for. Above the ones I know I could get without a problem if I left out the fact that I have a Master's degree.

I am applying for positions that are sure to challenge me. 

There was a time in my life when I chased challenges. I always chose the option that was more challenging in an attempt to push myself farther than I had gone before. And I felt proud and more confident every time I overcame a challenge.

Then life got to me. I began to fear failure and I started hanging out in my comfort zone. 

But, now I have overcome fear and I am ready to conquer challenges again. I am ready to push myself toward something greater than I had allowed myself to strive for before. I want more than just what I am used to. I want to step over boundaries and challenge myself again. 

So, I am not going to allow myself to settle for convenience or what others think I should do. I will not settle for jobs that are easy and easily obtainable. 

I AM PUSHING MYSELF TO THE NEXT LEVEL. 

It's what God has been urging me to do. It's necessary for this season I'm in. 

And let's face it, God is not going to let me go for anything less than His best for me anyways.